Jubilee's Jottings

  photo copyright Jubilee Young 2022  New is hard no matter what it is. New is a change, perhaps a shift in what we were expecting, and at the very least, it is a shift in what normal is. I quit my job at Paxton. I do better in different environments, and I am glad I realized this. It is not easy, but in finding what I should say “no” to, I have found what matters. They say, and it’s true, that for everything you say “yes” to, there is something you are saying “no” to. The best productivity advice says, instead of first choosing what you are going to do for the day, you should choose something to say “no” to. Prioritizing life comes from choosing what to say “no” to. Well, that might be easy for other people. I just did it. I decided, among other factors, that I prioritize writing in my life, and the way the job was working made it so I could not prioritize it how I should. Writing is part of my passion in life, and it is important that I pursue it. I have made writin...

Kneeling in the dew-laid grass alone Gloomy, moonless heavens show not grace  To the man in anguish dripping sweat,  “God, how can you ask this from your own?” “This is what I will,” the Voice replies Trusting heart, yet fearing mind intones,  “I will do exactly as you say.”  Sleepless in the prison bars of night Waiting, hoping for the morning light Rising at the breaking of the day “Hurry now. We must be on our way.” Blow by blow the sticks fall in their place Wrenching at the heart strings of his love Staggering beneath the load of dread Tear-filled eyes behold the road ahead Downcast eyes lift up to see the place There it is, the place where He has said.  Weary footsteps plod the upward track Footfalls echo as they trek alone Climbing silence breaks with spoken fear “Father, we have all, but not the lamb.” “Fear not, God has provided a lamb.”  Heavy, dusty stones built in a mound Twisted wood atop the gnarly stones Atop the off’ring submits to death....

     A co-worker walked into the kitchen and said, "So, we're going to get to know you today." (We were having a get-to-know the new workers, and I was one of them.)  "I'm just going to ad-lib it, because I don't know what to say."    "Well," he said, "I'm sure you won't have anything to say because you are such an introverted and shy person."     "What?! You're teasing me aren't you?"      The coworker winked and walked away. (I am anything but a shy and introverted person)      I had a lot of tabs open on my laptop.  My mom said, "You have a lot of windows open. It must be breezy."